Tomorrow (actually today, because it is already 00:32 so…) is Father’s Day here in Brazil. It’s going to be my first without my father, who passed away on february of 2013. I don’t actually know what to expect, i guess it will only be a regular day, like any other but I’d bet anything that if I start to think about my father, or even to only think about the celebration itself I’ll cry.
It’s sad to tell how fast things change, you know. I was travelling when daddy started having symptoms of Hepatitis B, and nine day after that he was gone. It’s already been 6 months since than, and my life has changed so much! I moved out from my beautiful big house full of memories to an tiny empty apartment, I have been studying 10 times more than i used to so I don’t have time to think of how much does it constantly hurts, and not to talk about the mother/brother issues that I have. Life changed into a severe way that I would not wish on anyone.
So, that being said, I’m sad. I’m blue. I’m not feeling very optimistic about school or happiness, get it? We -people, i mean- just need sometime to feel melancholy, and I think my time is coming again, even though I don’t want it to. Or not, i might be wrong, and all I’m saying is just bullshit. The only thing I know is that right now I miss my father, and for me that’s enough.
(Day to day I’ll talk more about it, I’m just not comfortable enough…. I’m feeling a bit alone, like I’m the only one who can hold this kind of feeling, i think. But It’s will fit where it has to fit, no worries)
I went to an exchange to England last year. I spent almost a month there and I had one of the greatest time of my life. Every little piece of me is missing the experience, the people.. even the food! … Continue reading →
So, I’m going to start making this mine, like some place I feel safe. Some posts will be silly, like really silly. For an example I’m going to start talking about perfect stupid cute imaginative marriages. And when this happen I’ll put some kind of warning in the beggining like (THIS WILL MAKE YOU DOUBT ABOUT MY SANITY) or whatever. And more I write in english more weird I think It’s sounds, but whatever hahaha. Oh I hope you like it! At least I will.